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15.5.2006 Journeys End.....The End!?I've put off writing this last chapter in my life.....I think it's because when I think about what to write, it just doesn't seem that interesting. But as someone once told me, "you'd be surprised at what is interesting to someone else". So I'll write it.
I was here, back home, back with my family, back to green trees and grass and the four seasons which I have missed and love dearly. I called my brother from Illinois and told him I was about 3 hours or less from being there. He said, "could you come tomorrow? Your room isn't ready yet."
I was sitting there with my mouth hanging open, babbling I think.....what? Did I hear you right? You want me to waste time just 3 hours away, spend another night in a hotel, eat fast food again?
He said "yah, do you mind?" And if you knew my brother you would know that he really did mean it. Not that he wanted to be difficult.....it's just the way he wanted it! I laughed, hysterically I think, and said fine. What's one more night.
So.......I drove in on April Fools Day.....maybe that was his sole purpose! Ha!
To sum this up, or try to because it really isn't that interesting, I spent the next 2 months living in my brothers basement. Now doesn't that sound depressing? It wasn't. It was fixed up really nice for me. I had a bed, a TV, VCR, phone, my computer, a leather lazy-boy recliner.....what else could anyone ask for? Heat would be my guess! :-) It was only April and I was in the basement and I had just lived the past 30+ years in the desert.....my blood was too thin to keep me warm. I think I had the portable heater dangerously close to my bed and probably had 6 or 7 blankets on me every night. But I knew it wasn't forever.
I spent the next 2 months exploring my new location and offering my services to my brother and sister to help with the kids. I told them to take advantage of me now because once I started back to work I wouldn't be as available. And they did. I picked kids up from school, ran them to and from soccer or whatever event was going on at the time. I baby sat.....my sister had me on an actual schedule. It was fun and it was a great time to get re-aquainted with my niece's.
I also found a place to rent....a really cute side-by-side duplex. By the first week of June I was flying back to Az. to have my things that were in storage loaded up and moved back here. I flew back after visiting with some friends and my Mom and set up house with all my things that were familiar to me and made me feel at home.
After I got settled in, I didn't want to start a job before doing that, I like to be comfortable and not have a huge project, like unpacking, to worry about, I wrote up a resume and sent it out. What a joke that was. Remember I told you that after my job at McCulloch Corp., which was management/salary level (I had my very own office with a window, woo-hoo) I started my own business? Well that was 14 years ago at the time.....I was thinking more of getting a job to where I didn't have to worry about getting my taxes paid, get some health insurance, maybe vacation time....things like that. I mean there were just so many more possibilities here!
Well, it was also 14 years away from computers and anything up to date tech wise. I mean things are outdated within no time these days.....and so was my knowledge. So, the jobs I was qualified for didn't pay enough to pay my bills. When I sat back and really looked at my options I did get freaked out. It is really expensive to live here, compared to where I was living. I questioned if I made the right move or not.
But then I decided to start my business up, again, because I could make twice as much money, a rediculous amount of money compared to Az. The cost of living here is higher which means wages are better. So I started my business. It didn't take long to get a full schedule and by the next Spring I was looking forward to not worrying about anything and just enjoying myself by exploring. I love day trips and will jump in my truck to take off for just about anywhere and anything that is happening. It's actually the drive to where I'm going that intrigues me the most.
But did I do that? Nooooo......instead I decided that I was done with renting, it only took me 9 months to figure that out. After being a home owner for 22 years I found that I didn't adapt well to being a renter. So I started house hunting. One of my clients was a realtor so that made things easy. I knew exactly what I wanted and felt it the minute I stepped into my house. It took about 2 months of searching, which really isn't that long, and I was moving, again.
I always wanted a cozy older home with charm and character and all the quirks that go with it. I found a 1934 Cape Cod on a double fenced lot that was all lanscaped.......and got it for a spectacular price considering it was at the peak of the selling boom 2 years ago!
So now I guess this summer will be MY summer to explore.....last summer I was still adding my touch to the house and the yard, but did take some time to play.
So there you have it.....my life in a very big/long nutshell. You're lucky I did the short version! Ha!
But you know what? And I'm smiling now just thinking about this.....I'm not really sure that this is it for me. I mean I love being around my family, but they had lives before I got here and even though I'm a part of them, I'm not. You know? I really enjoy my neighbors and may not be so lucky some where else. And I do love my house....yes I love this one material thing....so what! ;-) But I also know I can make a home any where. So I guess we'll see how things go.
And guess what......you'll probably know as soon as I know what my future holds for me!
I have been thru some good and bad and really bad situations in my life. I've made all those things happen by the choices I made. I do regret some, but know that all have made me who I am. I love who I am now and I love my life. I have to say it would have been nice to of figured everything out sooner, but that's not the way it works....apparently!
So I only look back now to remember the good times, and look forward to new possibilities.....and there are so many!
Colleen
 PS....I just previewed this and it's way long, oops!
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